confession

confession: i like to be with people, particularly friends whom i love, more than i like to work. more importantly at the moment, more than i like to look for a job.


how this shakes down: i'm going to south and north carolina for a week and i still do not have a job. 


i'm sure true reason, common sense and most adults would say, 'grow up, kate, and get a job.'
and yet i refuse. 
i am in denial.
and i love to travel. 
perhaps it would be better if i didn't have money saved because then i would have to go get a job. as it is, i have a comfy amount of money in the bank (barring an expensive emergency) and a flexible, understanding family that is willing to be with me as i attempt to figure out this next transition phase of my life.


other confession: i'm going back to camp next summer. i can see no reason not to when it is the job i love most, am best at, and have nothing else knocking on my door begging me to give up camp. 


now, i am not planning on bumming for 8 more months. frankly, i cannot stand the bum status, in practice or explanation. i'm tired of people asking what i'm doing and then offering their similar perspectives on what i should do (generally connected to my degree). i know that it is a human compulsion to offer said advice but hearing it constantly is tiring. more motivation. :)also, i do not refuse to get a job, i merely don't know what to do.


conclusion--motivations: hatred of bum status. boredom. worn out ears. lame advice. purposeful life. 
[get a job.]  :/

psalm 16

I dug into Psalm 16 today. I came across it yesterday as I was studying "counsel" in the Bible and realize that it was the psalm for me right now. I needed to meditate through something. Verse 1 starts out with putting my trust in God, the only One who can preserve me. I'm reminded, not for the first time, that God has everything under control. The reason that I trust Him is because He is the One that can do everything (specifically, preserve me). I was challenged in verse 4 to run to God, my God, not other gods that satisfy me momentarily but then leave raging emptiness. Not the easy gods of self, laziness, facebook, friends, family--I want none other but God. He is my God, my Lord. 

For clarification on a few words and for correct interpretation of the text, I often reference a commentary from Power Bible CD. (http://www.powerbible.com/)I highly recommend it because it's inexpensive and intensely useful.

I'm memorizing this one. I've been out of the habit of memorizing but I'm starting again. Psalm 16 is just 11 verses that are each practical and directly applicable to my life. The goal is 1 verse a day but I always try to beat that goal plus I've got plenty of time and the verses are simple. When I've meditated on them, they are alive to me and I want them constantly in my mind. 

This also fuels my desire to memorize consistently. I'll tackle something bigger after this. TBA  :)  

roadtrip: the plan is hatched

I don't know if I ever thought a road trip like that would actually ever happen. In fact, it's so surreal that I don't even remember how it came up. 

I wanted to road trip after camp because I didn't have anything to go to, no job, no apartment, nothing. Ideally, I would've hit the road with Karina but she had just graduated and had zero money so that was out. I must have mentioned the travel idea one day in the lead cabin because before I knew it, Kim, Kate and I were looking at the very real possibility of traveling across the country. We spent some of our free time mapping out our route across America and deciding where we wanted to stop and what we wanted to see. We also planned some of the logistics such as where to sleep, how to eat most efficiently, checking gas prices and budgeting. 

Kim had a tutoring job and had to be back by September 8 so we had 2 weeks and 2 days to see as much of America as we possibly could. I'll spare the planned details and just relay the trip as it unfolded. 

Also, most of the people at camp thought we were a little nuts to spend 2 more weeks together since we'd just spent the entire summer together but we didn't mind and everyone else had places they had to be. 

We decided to embark Monday, August 23, about a week after camp ended so that Kim and I could go on our family vacations. 

figuring out stuff

It is strange being at home in that, I feel as if I am on vacation, between camps, post college, after job, something other than directionless, which is what I actually am at the moment. Well kind of. I know what I want to do--hang out with teens or college kids. How in the world do I make a living doing that without being a teacher? (can't do that this year pretty much for sure)

So now I'm watching a psych with the sibs....our favorite pasttime for sibling bonding. 

Kyrie's golden birthday (14 on Sept 14th) party was last night. We had 8 girls over representing almost every grade between 6th and highschool senior. It totally juiced my longing to hang out with girls and input into their lives. Maybe I could teach Sunday school. I don't know. 

I'm too involved in pscyh. I can't write and pay attention.

upon returning

i have just returned home after a 2 week road trip and 2 full years at camp. i don't know what i am doing. i don't know what i want to do that i can actually do. i'm willing to do just about anything. i shall make another attempt to keep a blog.


i'm also looking forward to continuing my walk with the Lord. He is everything and all there is. He alone satisfies and guides me. in fact, i'm headed to the Word now.